William Stafford's Bedchamber

No. Your precious Cesare wouldnt like to see his former mistress here. Ive seen you two as of last and it doesnt look good for me. You say you love me but yet still coddle to his needs. Its something I wont deal with as long as my friend is in need of me. She doesnt deserve this ill treatment. Cesare was the first and only one she has been with since her husband passed away. I get up and walk to my door. I refuse to feel like a third wheel in this whole thing. I love you so much but maybe he is whats best for you.

William I love you and I only want you things will settle down I promise you do not go i can not bear to be part from you I sit on the floor looking at him he needs a girl that is all once he finds a girl he forget about his child, why did i get into this mess thinks her family is right

Cesare woudnt want to see her as he refers to her as "The Whore" so no I wont invite her here. Jane would be upset as well. I should be that childs father. He shouldve came from me, not him. My head hits the door. That child shouldve been mine. I know men are not supposed to cry but I cannot help it. I hate feeling this tore up inside.

Goes to him kisses him your my world Ceasar is not here to stay only to be here as the physician is ere to see what is going on, am scared as it is I can not be without you

I only drop to the floor....

Sits on the floor next ti him taking his hands into mine i promise you my next 10 children will be yours and we will have fun trying to have them, do you think I would want to lose the risk off losing you if I did not love you as I cry next to him

we know in your heart but you not seen a pattern have you, i look at him and hold his face into my hands kiss his cheeks and rub his tears come with me, trust me I say looking at him

Where are we going? I ask curiously

Smiles you will see kisses him do you trust me first

Yes.....I say all drawn out. Where are we going? I follow her to wherever she is taking me.

Close your eyes and give me your hand and I will guide you

As I knock on William door worried about me

As I take Henry and myself to Williams room wanting to be close to him as I feed and rock Henry to sleep I notice a mark that left by George hand, I lay on williams bed still has his smell I close my eyes feeling more then alone with two children I manage to fall asleep