Gardens

walking around the grounds finally home missing my mother so much i decided to leave the hussle of the palace, with my daughter Catherine.

sitting on the bench enjoying this fresh warm spring day, thinking about the palace and how can i return hating all those scares and whisper but they are slowly moving away from me to Anne but she is strong she can cope with them. Once i was in the Kings arms and was happy now am nearly forgotten about specially by him. At least our daughter is pretty. i do wish i could met some one new and move on and be married like i should be

As Catherine meet me in the garden with her nanny I smile and hug and kiss her I look at her and smile I bend down to speak with her my darling daughter, am here for a little while but we might be getting some visits from mummy's friends Thomas Wyatt he got children and they will come and play with you would you like that as she replies yes Mary I smile also you have a cousin uncle George has a daughter who I have also invited to come and play with you as I smile at her also you be able to come back to court with me but that is if your a good girl

As the nanny takes my daughter for her lessons am alone it gives me time to think

I walk outside before dinner thinking if he will hurt me as I can not be hurt again the fear of heart break is too much, I should keep him from Catherine until I am sure of his gestures

As I sit outside in the dark on a bench looking up at the castle have not see William since we ate this morning as I place my hand on my stomach I whisper William will always be your papa as I sigh knowing things have to be done feeling my heart is complete once again and knowing the trouble that could happen once my family find out now to spend 9 months here without seeing them or coming up with excuses why I can not visit Whitehall

I venture out to the beautiful Gardens here at Hever. Fresh air seems to be doing me good to keep the nausea away. I hope to see William and Mary soon...

Servant arrives and tells you mary is currently engage but please make yourself at home and if you need something then just get one off our servants Luke as been assigned to yourself as the servant bows and leaves

After spending some time with Mary, my head longs for the fresh air of the outdoors. As I walk about waiting for Francis, I hum a tune my mother used to sing to me as a child, one of love, happiness. I pick a rose and breath in its refreshing scent...

I scuttle out in the evening and immediately bow in front of Francesca,"Your Highness."

Thank you for joining me. I hand her the rose and smile, May I speak to you about something and ask you a huge favor but you must swear upon your life to not say a word to no one.

"It is my duty and pleasure."

I smile coyly,"Of course, madam. You have my sworn discretion."

I take her arms, walking with her at a slow pace about the gardens. I smile, yet completely nervous. I take a deep breath, Well...how do I put this? Oh boy....I am with child, Francis, by a man I wish I didnt betray in any way. I have no one to be there to help me deliver the child. Since you have done a beautiful job with the Duchess, could you help me?

I smile and touch her stomach gently,"Im honesty I already knew. I could tell."

I then nod,"However I promise you will have my discretion and help. Perhaps an examination would be wise…how far along do you think you are?"

I tilt my head in thought, I have no idea. Maybe an exam is wise then. I just wish that I could amend things with the father.....i wish.... We stop, face to face, I thank you for your discretion in keeping my secret. I lean in and hug her.

"You need never worry of my discretion-you will always have it. I swear, when I was a full time nurse-the secrets I had to keep! You would blush,"I say giggling.

...And I am quite sure that I dont want to hear any of them. I laugh, feeling quite content in this moment. Francis, lets go back to my chambers and do that exam. I am quite curious as to how far along I am.

"Of course, madam,"I reply and head back.

After seeing Her Highness I walk into the gardens thinking of my new job...

"My lord,"I reply simply, no idea who he is.

"Oh...uh...hello, Your Grace,"I reply.