Mahidevran's Bedroom

Inside Mahidervan made small steps someone had cursed her to bring this curse of fate upon her. Wrapped in a crisp white blanket was a blood clot formed as a fetus fate has it that when you lose a child it was not meant to be and that you're life was to take a different path instead. Mahidervan could feel a black shadow around her life now nothing was sunny or beautiful. In her eye's the skies were a purple colour her skin crawling in complete agony. With a roaring fire ablaze she placed her lost child onto it covering the smell with spices

Nigar Kalfa wrote:

Opening the door I saw young Mustafa with his Sultana Hatice I quickly curtsied My Sultana is not accepting visitors today she has a cold those were her orders not mine I felt bad but I remained to smile postively despite what was going on inside..

What a strange thing to see Nigar here perhaps she needed a break from Harem but her face told me that something was wrong I let Mustafa hand her the flowers and was on my way.

Mahidevran turned her head slowly with a crisp sharp look placed upon Nigar

Sultan Suleyman can burn in the depths of hell I have no husband anymore

After the ladies cleaned her bedsheets to new ones I went and knelt beside her You need to rest sultana She just knelt their like a lifeless vessel against her better judgement I went to the doors and called the eunuchs to fetch the king

Mahidervan wrapped her fingers around his hand and kissed it

I am sorry that I lost our child can you ever forgive me

Mahidevran felt ashamed to even look at him

Mahidevran felt sad about it but she managed a slight smile just for him. Clearing her throat she looked down for a bit

Nigar has news about you're concubine Nora.

Curling up into his arms was what Mahidevran wanted to do right now

I told her to tell you it seemed only fair

Mahidevran pulled him closer to her wrapping herself around him like a star fish on a hand.

Mahidevran smiled weakly placing her hand on top of his. It cut like a sharp piece of ice that his smile was caused by another woman. After moment of hesitation she buried her face deeply against his chest clutching tightly to him. It was as if they were both on the same piece of ice but slowly it started to crack in the middle seperating them apart Mahidevran would be completely lost without him.

I want to try and have another child soon Suleyman!

Mahidevran lifted up her head and brought her lips to his closing her eyes she felt his breath against hers. Opening her eyes they were like sparkling diamonds. She kissed him with an unknown urgency

Mahidevran recoiled herself from him

I just wanted a simple kiss nothing else but you may go to your concubines I can see it in your eyes that you want to go so go

Mahidevran looked into his green pale eye's her fingers gently playing with his beard

I always need you Suleyman you are the moon to my stars like I am the rose to the spring thank you for that name by the way it makes me feel beautiful you will make love to me again as why do I feel like this is the end

Mahidevran gave a strong passionate moan against his lips wrapping herself up in his arms.

I cheerish your declarations of love towards me Suleyman they warm my heart I could just live on your love alone without these earthly riches

She kissed him again letting her tongue linger in his mouth

Oh my Suleyman...

With an unknown desire reaching out to be had Mahidevran kicked up his leg trying to place him on top of her. Her hands ripping opening his layers just so she could be close to his chest and his scent of musk

Suleyman when you lay with me as one again it will be as though its our first and ever last time making love to each other